The trailer for our podcast is out on BBC sounds ‘World of secrets: the bad guru’. The series drops on Monday, then I will no longer have to be silent and I will be safe(r) to name the cult. This has been in the pipeline for more than 2 years.
In the past year, I’ve spent more than 40 hours recording, and many more hours having meetings, answering questions for legal, and recovering from the energetic toll it all takes. I received no money for this.
It feels momentous that this even got to this point considering all the legal challenges, requirements, threats, vows of silence, shame around speaking out and other barriers.
Thanks to anyone who may have supported this with their voice in front of or behind the scenes.
This is powerful. And I feel this is for all of us.
I want to speak a bit about my reaction to the trailer and why I chose to include it. This was the 3rd time I heard it. The first time from about half way through I shook, I cried, I hyperventilated. I felt a fire in my veins a physical sensation I’ve never had before. The second time was similar, slightly less.
Yet after this intense catharsis came a deep peace. A calm. A confidence. A relaxation in my body. A sense of weights lifting off. I felt like meditating.
For me this is the spiritual power of the process honesty and accountability. Not all love and light and forgive and forget and shut up and move on and pretend it never happened. But actually facing it. Using my voice for justice and no more harm or lies.
It’s not everyone’s path, but everyone should have the right to it and should know, it is as a valid and healthy choice as any other. Link in bio https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/m0026jxl
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